"When you can’t get the things you want, you can’t just put the blame on others."

It was there, at the same place. The place where everything happened. The place, so full of memories - from sweet to bitter.

I stood there, watching everything. It was just for the same thing, around the same time. Everything, was just like a replay, a replay of what had happen years ago.

No, I can’t really call it the same this time. For I, was at a different perception this time. Looking at things from the different view, it was just so clear… I came to understand something which was in a mist before, and that’s when something else came in… Appreciations.

Right now, it is all different, and it is never going to be the same again. I have someone special, who, in return treat me as a special one. For all that I’ve done before, I realized I was too wrong, to be hurting someone who has always treat me more than himself…

Everything just flashed right before my eyes. Like a replay…
It was not just dramatic. It was way too much, too much for the word "terrible" or "worst" to hold the meaning. Perhaps, it would be more than "hell"…

That’s life…

and I was watching it, just right before my eyes.

If that could be the end of the story, things would be a lot more simple.

Somehow, for nothing that I have done, in other words, a more simple sentence, I have done nothing, and I was being accused without a reason. Or, I would rather call it a reason that has nothing to do with me.

For that, it just messed up my thoughts… a string of pain, pins and needles in the mind, more than in the heart.

Of course, an apology would be great, but that seems to be the absolute impossible thing to happen, such a kind of person, (just a simple analyse and you would know it) will never admit she’s wrong for what she had done or spoken, what’s more to say about an apology from her? I could be dreaming if that will ever happen, or maybe you could tell me my skills of analysing is degrading. Psychology is fun, and helpful in live, but it can be scary….yeah… imagine you’re talking to a psycologist (the fact when you never knw he/she is one) he/she is actually analysing you and seeing through you in minutes or… SECONDS! The next thing that will happen is most probably you’ll be psychoed! Mind-controlling? Brain-wash? Ahah~ I’ll love to do that..if I am able to. Hell yeah, the book is boring. Hypnotise is not an interesting topic to read, harder to understand and it would take up a lot of time to be mastered (or never).
Argh~! Strayed away from topic…let’s go back to where I was…defamation…apology… Rational. Yes, rational is the right word. I’m afraid, a girl at such age should learn to be rational. I won’t use the word "matured", as one could always learn something new and gain more experience no matter how old the person is. She might not be that matured, but she should be rational enough to differentiate what is right and what is wrong. She should be rational enough, to know what she is saying. By accusing others without any evidence, or accusing someone with a reason that is not matured enough (or a reason that shows that the one being accused is not wrong/related) can fall under the law "defamation". I hope that the matter will not turn into such a big fuss. Perhaps, I should just admit that she is insensible, hoping that she will learn what I meant in time.

In addition, I have nothing against her, but I won’t allow someone to do stupid stuffs infront of me, and of course, I won’t keep everything in heart if things are allowed to be forgotten. So, just let it be. Stop there, right now, before it gets worse. Be happy, and trust that you are lucky.

Think about it. Close your eyes, free you mind from hatred and think about it.

When things didn’t turn out to be the way you want it to be, you can’t put the blame on others.